For all the kind tells
Posted: Thu Dec 22, 2016 6:38 pm
So, just got back from an extended absence. One of those you just disappear promising yourself you are finished for good this time type of absences. That the OOC crap just wasn't worth it. Then all of a sudden, like a smack addict seeing a spoon upon the counter in just the correct light, you find an uncontrollable urge to loose yourself to the addiction.
I forget sometimes that most of you people are completely nuts. That you are grown adults playing pretend in an trumped up sandbox. That you are getting emotional about a silly game. I scream in my mind, "Calm down! What is the big deal? Jesus." That you should just take a breath. That you need to relax. But, in truth that you is me. That it's us, a bunch of drama queens, floating around in an ocean of emotional drama and baggage. A small raft really that we tend to fall off every now and again.
We all are emotional wrecks at times playing this god forsaken game. A game that isn't really a game, but for many of us an art form. At times a beautiful art form that few outside even understand. An art form many of us cannot explain to those closes to us like our own spouses or friends. Something wonderful and capable of bringing one to tears of laughter and sorrow. Anyway, I have fed my inner drama queen enough today with this post. To the Kudos.
I was thinking about disabling tells altogether this time around, but I am glad I didn't.
Since coming back I have gotten a mountain of extremely kind and some even heart felt tells. Tells from folks who I have shared many great experiences with over the last couple of years. Tells from great RP'ers that I respect their craft very much. I want to truly thank you for all the kind words. It warms me greatly hearing how my past characters have influenced them. That I was missed. Even taking the time for "Welcome back!". All of it, I thank you.
I can't promise receiving another tell from some douchbag isn't going to want me to rage quit again, but I can promise that I truly enjoy playing with many of you and happy to share the raft.
I forget sometimes that most of you people are completely nuts. That you are grown adults playing pretend in an trumped up sandbox. That you are getting emotional about a silly game. I scream in my mind, "Calm down! What is the big deal? Jesus." That you should just take a breath. That you need to relax. But, in truth that you is me. That it's us, a bunch of drama queens, floating around in an ocean of emotional drama and baggage. A small raft really that we tend to fall off every now and again.
We all are emotional wrecks at times playing this god forsaken game. A game that isn't really a game, but for many of us an art form. At times a beautiful art form that few outside even understand. An art form many of us cannot explain to those closes to us like our own spouses or friends. Something wonderful and capable of bringing one to tears of laughter and sorrow. Anyway, I have fed my inner drama queen enough today with this post. To the Kudos.
I was thinking about disabling tells altogether this time around, but I am glad I didn't.
Since coming back I have gotten a mountain of extremely kind and some even heart felt tells. Tells from folks who I have shared many great experiences with over the last couple of years. Tells from great RP'ers that I respect their craft very much. I want to truly thank you for all the kind words. It warms me greatly hearing how my past characters have influenced them. That I was missed. Even taking the time for "Welcome back!". All of it, I thank you.
I can't promise receiving another tell from some douchbag isn't going to want me to rage quit again, but I can promise that I truly enjoy playing with many of you and happy to share the raft.
